Hey babygirl!! This is a tough week coming up and with school starting it just brings back a bunch of memories and fears. I think about you all the time and I see alot of yu in your baby sister. She is almost two and she reminds me of you with her independent ways. She can do anything! I miss you everyday and I don't think the hole in my heart will ever heal. I think we learn to adjust with life and the pain that we feel and we learn to deal with it. Shwan talks about you all the time to Jade and I listen as he tells her stories about you and him. He misses you alot-We won a stuffed frog and we could not decide between the three of them who should get it so Shawn decided that we should put it on your cross and we did. Pawpaw Bill mowed it for you the other day to keep it looking nice. I wish you could be here with all of us. I think the longer it goes the harder it is sometimes. I see all of your friends and how much they have grown and I wonder what you would be like and and I know you would still be beautiful but how long your hair would be that kind of stuff. It is hard without you and sometimes I just sit and wish really hard that I could give you a hug and see your ssmile and just have you for one more day but then I know that I could not ket you go after one more day-I sit here and just think about every moment we spent together and I thank god for that but somehow it does not make the pain go away. I just hope that you know how much me and everyone else loves you and misses you. I know everyone loves you but I just don't think that anyone can love you as much as me. One day I know that we will see each other again---I love you and miss you and you will always be in our heart. You are and will always be mom's babygirl!!! I love you--Mom, Bud, Shawn, Jade nd Gavin PS--Payton sends you baloons all the time and writes messages on them, SHe misses you alot!!!! I love you always-- MOM